Relationships.
I’ve never been in a relationship, let alone had a boyfriend. I think it’s not only because I’m scared to have one or to get betrayed or even hurt, I just don’t understand them. The only male role model that I have ever had as a constant in my life is my uncle Christian. He’s been my best friend, brother, and father my whole life. And I thank him for that. And he shows me that there are good guys out there but that there are also the guys who are not necessarily bad but just not for me. And there was never any strong marriages in my family either. I always had a rule about not dating and my friends at first would say, ” Why?! Don’t you want to find someone and be with them? Or fall in love? Have fun while you’re still young! ” and after helping them with their relationships and problems they now say, ” You were smart to do that! but I think it’s time you lived a little now since you’ve given yourself enough time to think about dating. ” and I do think it’s time for a change. A fresh new start is what I need and I might just wait until graduation day to break my rule. Since there is no one I can think of who I would break my No Dating Rule. I guess time will tell.
